I do not regret lost wealth or things, nor failed loves and broken wings. I walk in His mercy, quiet and free, from all that was and used to be. One path, one Truth, one Life. And all else stays behind. Like a fantasy, an illusion, born of longing and confusion. I walk forward, as it was written, No longer as was, but in Him, as is.
Interpretation
This poem is a farewell—
not to the past itself, but to our illusions about it.
The speaker has walked through regret, through the pursuit of pleasure, freedom, myth, and escape. He’s chased wealth, women, and personal legend—and found each one hollow without divine alignment.
He doesn’t look back in bitterness.
He walks forward quiet and free, wrapped not in ego or ambition, but in mercy.
The core line—
“No longer as was, but in Him, as is.”
—draws from Exodus 3:14, where God names Himself not in time but in Being:
“I Am.”
Here, the speaker steps into that truth: no longer building an identity on longing, myth, or self-invention, but surrendering to the reality of God as the only true “is.”
Commentary
I do not regret lost wealth or things,
nor failed loves and broken wings.
This is the confession of a man who has lived widely, burned through passion, and let go of mourning.
Wealth, love, and missed potential (“broken wings”) are acknowledged, not erased—but released.
Regret has no place for a soul that’s realigned.
I walk in His mercy, quiet and free,
from all that was and used to be.
Here, the speaker claims his position inside divine mercy.
He is not demanding justice or asking for another chance—he is simply walking forward, unshackled, with peace.
One path, one Truth, one Life.
And all else stays behind.
A direct allusion to John 14:6 — “I am the way, the truth, and the life.”
The speaker isn’t just referencing Christ—he is walking His path.
Everything else—material, romantic, ideological—is left behind as excess.
Like a fantasy, an illusion,
born of longing and confusion.
Here, the poem gently critiques the dream-worlds of the past—
those myths the speaker once tried to live (romance, heroism, escape, ego).
They were real in feeling, but not true in essence.
They arose from longing—but led to confusion.
I walk forward,
as it was written,
no longer as was,
but in Him, as is.
This closing stanza is where the mystical theology sharpens:
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“I walk forward” – a declaration of conscious motion and agency.
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“As it was written” – the speaker recognizes he is fulfilling something predestined—a script authored by God, not ego.
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“No longer as was” – the old identity has been discarded. Not erased, but transcended.
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“But in Him, as is” – this is the climax: being no longer as self-contained ego, but fully inside God’s eternal presence.
It reflects Exodus 3:14 — “I Am that I Am” — and recognizes the speaker as no longer derivative, but real only in relation to the One who truly Is.